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5 years ago was a tough couple of days. I often write a long article about it, but this year I’m just going to say I am happy to be staying with my sister and her husband in one of my “happy places.” I will walk, think, souvenir shop, and be safe. I am grateful…
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My physical therapist said that I should walk, because walking is the solution to everything.So, I had a half an hour before my physical therapist appointment and thought, hey, I could go walk.So, here I am.Actually stopped at Como first, but it was just too busy.Newell’s just a nice, quiet little park.And we used to…
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I still have a history of hearing things. But I just read the clinical notes from the last appointment. I know you shouldn’t, as they’re not always straightforward. But read them I shall. One of the notes, when talking about psychosis and the hallucinations, was that there was some consideration that the hallucinations were just…
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A long time ago I started having auditory hallucinations. My doctor didn’t think too much about them because they were pretty simple and rare. And honestly kind of funny. When I started trying THC I realized that made them much stronger and more often, but still, just no voices in another room, no discernible words.…
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Yeah, I’ll put a trigger warning on this. Depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, and casino bingo. I’ve been travelling a lot lately, which is good. I tend to have good days while on a road trip. It’s not a guarantee, but it happens. When I get back from a road trip I do tend to feel…
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I had a call with my psychiatrist today to catch up on meds after my trip. I’m all refilled up for three weeks, and back to where I was before my trip. (I had run out of a few things upon returning, so we’re stabilizing back to my current regimen.). This list is for your…
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This was supposed to be a tiny, short, brief note. RIP travel journal writing for the night Just watched Cast Away (two words), and like any mainstream movie there’s a lesson at the end, or some revelation or reconciliation. I connected with Tom Hanks because I feel like I’ve been a castaway for some years…
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Just another post of complaints. Getting tired of that, among other things. The med changes aren’t going well. I meet with the whole care team (GP included) this week and maybe we’ll sort it out. I don’t know or care so much anymore. Or I don’t know what to feel. The Mirapex has been a…
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Today made my top five worst days. That includes attempts, hospitalizations, and a brutal beating by drunk Robert. Like it takes a village to do some things, it takes many days to make a worst day. Like recent trends, this wasn’t a dramatic crisis. It was a building of horrible that reached a crescendo. Didn’t…
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It’s my blog I can cry if I want to. When it comes to my care stuff, I’m the teachers pet: Yet here I am, as bad as ever. In DBT they talk about a “life worth living.” I don’t even know what that would look like anymore. Mine doesn’t feel like that. Don’t worry,…
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