Category: Uncategorized
-
It’s been a month (aka 4 days) since my last post. I sent a message to my Psychiatrist-in-charge and a lot of his answer was “you need to weigh the options yourself.” He talked about risk and mitigation and those types of things, but it just made me feel worse. I don’t think I was…
-
First off, scars are mostly healed. Chest scar is almost invisible again, and the neck scar is still inflamed and dark but well on its way. Still have a small lump in my throat, but it’s getting better daily. VNS is gone, I don’t really miss it. Tomorrow it’ll be a month since surgery and…
-
“If you are lonely when you’re alone, you are in bad company.” –Jean-Paul Sartre Normally I love being alone. Knowing you’re in a space where the only person to affect it is you. Today, however, is different. My therapist cancelled the second session in a row. That’s fine, people have needs, get sick, need to…
-
No, no, this doesn’t mean I’m any better. In fact the upcoming surgery and all the logistics (and money) involved have shot my anxiety through the roof, and as a result depression and SI decided to join that party. So I’m a mess. BUT Thinking about anesthesia. When you’re coming out of it, or after…
-
What is an explant, you say? It’s the opposite of an implant. In this case, I am having my Vagus Nerve Stimulator removed. We’re doing it for a number of reasons, but I think the primary reason is to pave the way to the Deep Brain Stimulator study. An upgrade, if you will. That’s a…
-
5 years ago was a tough couple of days. I often write a long article about it, but this year I’m just going to say I am happy to be staying with my sister and her husband in one of my “happy places.” I will walk, think, souvenir shop, and be safe. I am grateful…
-
My physical therapist said that I should walk, because walking is the solution to everything.So, I had a half an hour before my physical therapist appointment and thought, hey, I could go walk.So, here I am.Actually stopped at Como first, but it was just too busy.Newell’s just a nice, quiet little park.And we used to…
-
I still have a history of hearing things. But I just read the clinical notes from the last appointment. I know you shouldn’t, as they’re not always straightforward. But read them I shall. One of the notes, when talking about psychosis and the hallucinations, was that there was some consideration that the hallucinations were just…
-
A long time ago I started having auditory hallucinations. My doctor didn’t think too much about them because they were pretty simple and rare. And honestly kind of funny. When I started trying THC I realized that made them much stronger and more often, but still, just no voices in another room, no discernible words.…
-
Yeah, I’ll put a trigger warning on this. Depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, and casino bingo. I’ve been travelling a lot lately, which is good. I tend to have good days while on a road trip. It’s not a guarantee, but it happens. When I get back from a road trip I do tend to feel…
