a Scarlet D
My mental health journey
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Tag: suicide
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Just got out of ketamine and had a follow-up with psychiatrist at the treatment resistant depression clinic. He wasn’t suggesting I go inpatient, he was asking for a reason not to do it. I was honest with him and we eventually settled on me remaining at home with check-ins. But it was touch and go…
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The new PHP is going well. I’m getting something out of the group therapy sessions. I enjoy spending the time with people just as broken as me. Someone pointed out the other day that I appear to be running without filters or masks. I suppose they’re right. And it’s a bit refreshing. I’m still not…
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.. Three years ago tonight, I didn’t die. I’m not completely sure I know how I feel about this. I was just sitting at work dropping a calendar entry, as ones does. And I noticed the 9/11, but something in the back of my mind tripped an alarm and here I am at work not…
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Today is the first anniversary of my suicide attempt. In just this past year alone I have: done an inpatient stay a partial hospitalization an intensive outpatient program started ketamine therapy a full course of ECT had a VNS surgically implanted started DBT applied for disability. Spent 75+ hours in therapy Spent 96+ hours in…
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Ironically, my “stuff” wasn’t that bad, as it usually was. I was talking philosophically about the pointlessness of life, using the example “I mean, what’s to stop us from just driving into the monument by the river and ending it all?”
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