a Scarlet D

.. Three years ago tonight, I didn’t die.

I’m not completely sure I know how I feel about this.  I was just sitting at work dropping a calendar entry, as ones does.  And I noticed the 9/11, but something in the back of my mind tripped an alarm and here I am at work not really sure what to do or how to feel.

Yes, I’ve seen the anniversary of this 2 other years, but I was still a rotten vegetable at those times. But now I’m glad to be here.  I have a good job, friends, apartment and pretty okay car.

But it was just three years ago, and a few other attempts after that too. I’m in such a different place, but wow, three years. An eternity and just a moment in one.  It’s really thrown me for a loop.

I’m safe, I’m doing well, and I’ll be with great friends this evening. That’s a wonderful thing.