a Scarlet D

Friday they set my VNS to 1.5 mA, which I previously described as “1.5 – Coughing. That was the first impression. Sharp pain, more voice gravel.”

I’ll add heartburn to the description, and say the coughing isn’t much there. It’s not actual heartburn but it’s the sensation, above the stomach. It also make me feel like I can’t breathe, but if I just take a deep breath it reassures me that I actually can. These things are only when it’s firing, when it stops it all goes back to normal. I don’t feel it every single time it goes off, but it feels like I notice it many of the times. It doesn’t keep me up at night, though, which is good.

When things aren’t going well, it’s not helped by a stabbing pain in the throat. Depression remains, anxiety a bit better, but only because I’m not going anywhere.

I’ll be watching to see how used to it I get, and at the end of the week I may have it turned up to 1.75 mA, which felt pretty severe when I sampled it. Maybe taking it in increments like this will help. Maybe.