Category: Devices
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I thought I could take a shirt, rip it strategically so it showed my VNS scars, and I could be “guy attacked by werewolf” or something. Unfortunately, I don’t think they’ll be ugly enough when Halloween rolls around! So I’ll just stay home. They are pretty raunchy, but half as much as the day after…
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I still have the VNS, it’s just in a clear plastic biohazard bag on my counter. I’m going to try and make this short. Surgery went fine, scars over scars and complete VNS removed, no complications. Same as implanting it, same recovery. Taking the VNS out was just like putting it in, but without the…
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I had a call with my psychiatrist today to catch up on meds after my trip. I’m all refilled up for three weeks, and back to where I was before my trip. (I had run out of a few things upon returning, so we’re stabilizing back to my current regimen.). This list is for your…
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This was supposed to be a tiny, short, brief note. RIP travel journal writing for the night Just watched Cast Away (two words), and like any mainstream movie there’s a lesson at the end, or some revelation or reconciliation. I connected with Tom Hanks because I feel like I’ve been a castaway for some years…
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Today made my top five worst days. That includes attempts, hospitalizations, and a brutal beating by drunk Robert. Like it takes a village to do some things, it takes many days to make a worst day. Like recent trends, this wasn’t a dramatic crisis. It was a building of horrible that reached a crescendo. Didn’t…
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tl;dr Whining and self sabotage. Pretty sure it’s going to be boring for you all. The psychologist I was talking to about EMDR turned out to be a marriage and family counselor who has EMDR as one of his skills. I have a call with him Wednesday where I’ll be letting him go. Appointment with…
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Back down to 23 on the phq-9, was hanging around 25 earlier this week. Not sleeping, too busy or not busy enough, adjusting stimulation meds, plus the five minute stabbing just added up to crazy. Writing this post while in the TMS chair between head tappings every 20 seconds and neck stabbing every five minutes.…
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tl;dr summary at the end of each section. VNS We increased the power to 1.75 mA, the next will be 2.0 in a couple weeks or so. I was pretty much tolerating 1.50 but it was still painful and the heartburn was annoying. At 1.75 the pain has increased to something that makes me gasp…
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Friday they set my VNS to 1.5 mA, which I previously described as “1.5 – Coughing. That was the first impression. Sharp pain, more voice gravel.” I’ll add heartburn to the description, and say the coughing isn’t much there. It’s not actual heartburn but it’s the sensation, above the stomach. It also make me feel…
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Second week in on anything is usually not very newsworthy. I think this is worthy of a post. Also, I’m eating an eclair at one of my favorite shops and need to kill some time. The weekend was bad. I stayed in bed for most of it, just trying to escape. I remember a strong…
