I’m going to have to stop trying to build models because they’re not turning out right. I can’t tell if it’s that I’m reading the instructions wrong or that I’m not able to do it just the right way but it seems like the thing’s I’m building aren’t working the way they’re supposed to or…

Today I had my last standard session. I’ll be coming back in a week for a follow-up session but that’s the end of the normal sessions. I’d like to say I’m much improved but if anything I feel I’ve slid backwards a bit. My memory is not great, and I find myself having to stop…

Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) is a procedure, done under general anesthesia, in which small electric currents are passed through the brain, intentionally triggering a brief seizure. ECT seems to cause changes in brain chemistry that can quickly reverse symptoms of certain mental health conditions. Mayo Clinic The night before, I need to refrain from taking a…

Part of the fun of forgetting and not remembering is the occasional recollection. Like how I keep forgetting and then remembering that my psychologist, who I really connect with, is leaving her practice. So I need to find a new one. But I can’t remember what the plan for that would be, or if there…

Spent the weekend feeling like I was ab0ut to jump out of my skin. Restless and having trouble remembering the simplest things. Started and gave up on two craft projects, a ship’s model and at least one knitting project. A couple of my meds actually have anti-seizure properties – and I accidentally took them on…

Waking up felt like waiting up for the first time. Everything seemed familiar, yet new. I had to be reminded of a few scheduling things, and there’s a general sense of “new” to everything. It’s pretty surreal. And this anecdote from the wife about yesterday: Coming out of bilateral ECT Wednesday, I asked if you…

Just want to start off by saying how great the staff at the hospital are – from the front desk to the folks doing the procedure. I may mention the odd electrode left over or this or that, but everyone is very professional, and personable at that. Today’s experience was a good bilateral treatment. Immediate…

After a horrible night’s sleep, I went in for my seventh treatment. The weekend saw no improvement in the depression, so my care team and I decided to switch from unilateral to bilateral on the ECT. From Wikipedia: In unilateral ECT, both electrodes are placed on the same side of the patient’s head. Unilateral ECT…

It’s hard getting appointments with my psychologist. And a few weeks ago I set up some recurring Tuesday appointments which now conflict with the day program. So we’ve been going week to week trying to set up last minute meetings. Got a call Friday morning offering a timeslot in the afternoon and that worked out…

So are you better? everyone Before we tackle that question, let’s look at the issues at hand when trying to do a personal depression inventory: Depression as identity – Am I a depressed person or am I a person with depression? I have lived with depression for decades. Sometimes it’s once or twice a year,…