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A week from Monday I will be restarting electroconvulsive therapy, or ECT. It’ll be unilateral this time, which is supposed to keep memory loss lower. That’s how we started last time but went to bilateral because it just wasn’t working. Unilateral means just on one side of the head, bilateral is both sides, which is…
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COVID. Yay. Always something new and horrible happening with the pandemic. This is a short (I think I’m lying about “short”) piece about my experience getting a booster, and how my cognitive, memory, and physical stuff got in the way. I needed the booster shot, and spent a bit of time looking for a location…
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I struggle with knowing how much to share and how much to keep to myself when it comes to the ketamine “trips.” I don’t want to sound like someone babbling about their acid trips or some burned out drug fiend. I understand that it’s very difficult to describe these things, and to the reader it…
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One of my side gigs is writing for money. It’s on Fiverr, and this specific gig is for pieces about Mental Health from a patient’s point of view. https://www.fiverr.com/share/PxlAj0
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I will preface this with the fact that this is a catch up post, and the latest “real” post is coming next. Started the emsam patch, an MAOI. It does not have the usual dietary restrictions, but any higher dose they switch me to will have them. It reads like my grocery list of favorite…
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I really love The Real Depression project. They’re very good at elucidating aspects of depression and anxiety.
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Rather than 50,000 words, I’m going with a summary before the content: Still feel broken, like crap. Slow and thick in the mind and body Getting the booster vaccine today, so tomorrow might suck IOP is frustrating me with it’s endless clichés and soothing voices I have that sadness in my chest that makes it…
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Another wonderful prompt from my therapist. I really need to post all of them. What is the biggest lie that you consistently tell yourself? Why do you continue to do this? My depression is the lying. I tell myself that my depression isn’t real.It’s laziness.It’s wanting attention, and it’s drama.I can just pick myself up…
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Today’s post is going to be a shit sandwich. Fun, good stuff on the outside, crap in the middle. I found an ancient Ande’s mint today and it was the first one I thought didn’t taste like nostalgia and happiness. It kept chasing me. I think it was haunted. When I disturbed it in it’s…
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It’s Halloween weekend. I’m writing this Sunday night, the night of the trick or treaters. Friday Friday was an off day, meaning no program in the morning and no appointments. Which is actually a rarity. I got up late-ish. Vertigo at a 4/10, sometimes rising to 7/10. Mind blurry in the morning but clearing by…
