Tuesday was a busy day. Up early to see my psychiatrist to review my meds. Waiting to see how the ECT progresses before we change anything else. Grabbed some coffee at the hospital and an uber home. Had enough time to practice playing music before a neighbor gave me a ride to my day program.…

New nurse – or is it old nurse and new nurse was last week? Waiting room crowded, like standing room only by mid morning. But we were seated so there you have it. Same routine, lots of waiting, bad TV shows in the lobby. No signs of the depression changing, but we’re going to go…

So that’s three treatments complete, one week down. Time for a personal inventory, I guess. I don’t feel that much differently. I am still a little hopeful, but have been feeling the depression all week as well. The staff at my hospital are great. They take the time to explain everything, carry out they procedures…

Update: I just remembered, the nurse said the mood ring went all rainbow colored last time! Multicolored and changing! Apparently I published the draft of this post five hours ago. Oops. Today after the procedure, my jaw ached for a little while. Doc says I keep having really good seizures, and I’m guessing this and…

One of the things I’ve learned in the day program is the concept of GLAD. It’s the idea that you every once in awhile or at the end or beginning of a day go through the acronym GLAD and say: one thing you’re grateful for one thing you’ve learned one thing you’ve achieved and one…

This one is going to be much more rambling and disconnected. Up again in the dark, but now it’s just an appointment, it’s not a grand adventure. Aunt and Uncle are giving me a ride home, but wife took me and was my “minder” through the appointment. It’s a complicated thing, my schedule. So it’s…

For some reason I thought a Marines shirt was the appropriate choice. Maybe for confidence. We arrived in the still dark of the morning, and after some wandering around found the office. Checked in with the usual paperwork, depression inventory, had vitals taken. Blood pressure was crazy high, but I was nervous and couldn’t take…

Didn’t sleep. Not a wink. Like being at work for eight hours. In the dark. With no work to do. Do you have any idea how boring that is? There’s this thing called sleep hygiene. Go to bed at the right time, get up at the right time, if you’re not sleeping, get out of…

That’s Harvey. In the day program I attend three afternoons a week, we do lots of different things, many of them involve physical exercises. Not exercise, but movement things. Often the instructions are vague for a reason – to let us come up with our own understanding of the task and see what we can…

We went to a Halloween party – a rare public sighting of both of us together. It was a great time though and so much fun talking to friends I haven’t seen in a long time. And met a bunch of people who could be new friends. We both talked openly with some of them…