Not much new to report. Back to work full time, only getting ECT treatments in maintenance mode – once every three weeks. Last one switched to Friday so my second day is on the weekend instead of having to take two days of work off. Between the latest meds change and the ECT things are…

It’s a question I dread. Most of the time it’s someone asking me literally how it’s going. Like, a normal “Hey” question. They’re not trying to figure out if I’m depressed or anxious or where on the scale I am, mentally. It’s usually just a greeting. I’ve landed on “It’s going.” as a standard response.…

Met with the new shrink on Friday and it went well. We spent the whole time going over my history, and she seems cool. The weekly check-in isn’t the standard PHQ and GAD form, so those trends won’t be in the system for me as regularly anymore, which will be odd. I’ll still do it…

Had a maintenance ECT session today and it was a whopper! Dizzy and woozy all day, slept for hours and hours. Still not quite steady on my feet. It hasn’t been going very well recently, so we’re going to stick with a two week repetition for the maintenance sessions. Saw my psychologist for the last…

While the Holidays can be tough for some people because it highlights family, or loneliness, for me it’s the disruption. Days off or working from home, events and dinners to be planned and executed, family expectations and time spent killing time. It’s the break from normal routines and schedules that can be trying. Don’t get…

I saw my psychiatrist in passing the other day and we had a nice exchange of smiles and waves and both went on our way. Pretty typical, especially since I’m at the hospital often enough that I’m seeing my care team in passing. What was different about this one was that this was the first…

Ok, time to start using this memory problem to my benefit. This weekend I’m going Christmas gift shopping, and in addition to the items on my list, I’m going to buy a few things I would never think to buy myself. I’ll wrap them, and place them under the tree. Since I have a maintenance…

Lethe is the mythological Greek river of forgetfulness. I have been having some issues with my memory. To be honest, this latest period has been about 5 months, but to my mind it feels more like one or two. Obviously I can’t know what I don’t know, but there are times that people mention an…

Today I went back to work for the first time in a Very Long Time. I’ll be doing halftime and continuing the day treatment program in the afternoons. But it sure was nice to be back in the office. I spent the whole time playing catch-up, and while the goal is for me to fill…

Once a week now, while in maintenance mode. And then we go two weeks, and finally we go once a month. I had my first in a week this Monday, which went well. Came home and had a nap to let the grogginess clear, but haven’t really gotten back to 100%. And is it bad…